Sketchbook

Journey Line – The lesson Learned

A Compulsion to Create

This character is called St. Stives. Named because I drew the sketch in St Ives, Cornwall. I like using certain attachments, loose or otherwise, regarding the naming of my work. Not always, but more often than not. These cherubim style characters are a new thing. Angelic little faces yet coloured and textured with a dirty, rough style, as is my process.

Every time an artist makes a mark there comes a promise of something new. Perhaps not always fantastic and maybe not always finished. But something new regardless. Even if the sketchbook page is torn out, disregarded or destroyed, something new would have occurred. The journey of line is something that I am compelled to explore daily. Almost obsessively. It wasn’t always like that. There were times when I could go for days, weeks even months without drawing something or making a mark. Now I just have a constant and inescapable urge to create, to jot down at least some reference of an idea in one form or another. Much of this has come from my own experiences through creativity and what it means to me to be an artist, mixed with my own philosophies regarding forward movement in life, who I am, and what makes me tick in general. What do I mean by this?

Anxiety and Imposter Syndrome

Am I good enough? Could I be better? Am I where I want to be? These and many other questions often enter the minds of the creative professional. I feel that most artists, at least most of the ones that I have met, have an overwhelming urge to be better and constantly get better in their individual pursuits. This might not be the most surprising statement to make, after all, we all strive to be good at what we do and perhaps be the best that we can be in any given pursuit in life. There was a time, many years ago, when I found that my constant need to get better meant that I got into a space where I wouldn’t create art unless I knew it was going to be better than the last thing that I made. What a terrible place that was. Such a ridiculous burden to put upon one’s self. It was not without a whole heap of anxiety issues to boot.

Once I noticed that this was a destructive place to have got to, that it was stopping me from putting my foot forward and isolating me from the very thing that I loved doing, I knew I had to change the script. So I did!

I’m Good Enough

Experience helps you get better!

A bold statement, but for the most part experience of something in a positive or negative sense is going to make you more aware of what that thing is. You will gather a greater knowledge of how to deal with it, how it works and an awareness of how you react to whatever that something is. Regarding art and creativity, as with any practice, the more that you do the better you will get. At the very least, you will become more aware of the materials that you are exposed to, how they react to each other, how you react to them and what you can do with them in your own unique creative way. You will also get a better appreciation of how all these things fit together into the bigger picture of who you are as a creative artist, perhaps even as a person in general. Immersing yourself in something will inevitably bring about a better connection to that something and with that, a better understanding.

When I was blocked from ‘doing’, due to my self imposed restrictions, I was fortunate enough to have these things drawn to my attention. Partly through my own observations and partially because of conversations with peers etc. Having thought about these issues, and having considered them at length, I realised that the best way forward was to move forward. To do instead of not doing. Since I made that decision, not only have I learned more about my skill set, I have had a better appreciation of who I am as an artist. I’ve been able to reconsider the fact that there are no mistakes in the journey of art, just experiences. Experiences to derive value from, enjoy and have as a part of my unique journey, also contribute to my creative skill set. If we decide that we are good enough to create in any given moment, to enjoy that creativity and relish the experience fluidly, the inevitable outcome is that we will progress anyway. Without anxiety and probably at a pace.

Another thing that stopped me ‘doing’, was measuring myself against other artists. There will always be greater and lesser spirits in this world. The journey of quality experiences, and applying the wonderful things that influence us in a positive way, is as good a journey as we will ever make. So doing rather than not doing is very much the way forward.

I saw this quote recently that sat well with me.  ‘You can’t use up creativity. The more you use, the more you have.’  – Maya Angelou.

The Outcome

Create. Make. Colour. Scribble. Glue. Carve. Splash. Splat. Scrub. Spray. Stitch. Polish. Scrape. Draw, Draw, Draw…

Doing is the way forward. Being proactive in your creativity is the journey. If you do it with wild abandon, with fascination and excitement of that journey, all of your outcomes will be pure joy.

This lesson I learned was many years ago now, but I wanted to share it and have it written down as a reference. I hope it makes sense to you and that you get something out of it. The outcome of the lesson is, even though I keep improving, is that I am good enough. Always!

© EMELBI 2023 – All Rights Reserved

See how the illustration came together in Procreate and Photoshop

Different Colour Versions

 

Coffee, Quiche, Cake and Conversation

I love to fill sketchbooks. I always have a couple on the go, but my go to paper of choice is a sheet of A4 printer paper. I’m not sure why I favour this. I think it’s because it’s a nice big sheet of clean paper ready for some new creativity. I have boxes full of drawings on A4 paper, images that I have built up over the years. When I am sketching ideas, I love to get things down quickly. With characters, I keep everything loose, scribbled almost. I like there to be a lot of energy in the resulting imagery.

It’s good to draw, it’s an essential tool for all artists. I will always encourage any artist, young or old, to draw as much as possible. Getting your ideas down on paper is important and a crucial aspect of the artist’s journey. Even if you don’t use the imagery immediately you may well come back to it at some point later and discover something fresh about it. I often look at old sketches and form new ideas about where to take the imagery.  When you draw freely and almost for the sake of it you never really know how the image is going to unfold, or what you’re going to end up with. In my experience, the excitement of creating like this happens from that first mark that is made on that pristine piece of white paper right through to the finished artwork, if indeed you take it that far!

I was recently down in Penzance, in Cornwall. I was having a coffee and a slice of cake with my daughter in a fabulous little cafe called ‘The Honey Pot’ on Parade Street. It’s well worth checking out by the way. While we were there we met a lovely couple on the next table. They engaged us in conversation because my daughter and I were both drawing. We ended up talking about art and culture and what makes us tick etc. The gentleman’s name was Richard Sorrell. He gave me his card and told me that he was also an artist and that he lived locally. His work is quite different from mine although he likes to draw people too. There is a lot of energy in his work and some great colour use. You can see his work here… richardsorrell.co.uk

He had a sketchbook with him and was also making marks in it as we spoke. They were a smashing couple. The conversation was lovely. For some reason I felt compelled to give them the sketch I had been making while sitting there in the cafe. It was more or less like the sketch below. I drew this second drawing immediately afterwards. I could still see the pressed lines, and therefore the image, that my pen had left on the sheet underneath the one I had worked on. The following morning I took the sketch into Procreate on the iPad and made this illustration from it. I called it Penzy. I wonder if you can guess why?

Why am I telling you all this? I have always found that creativity brings people together. Over time, I have noticed that people will engage with you if you are doing something creative. There seems to be an energy that occurs when one is being creative. Some positive vitality emerges and stretches out in all directions, encompassing the space. Perhaps all space?! It nourishes and is exuberant.

The day after this chance meeting my daughter and I were back in the very same cafe at the very same table. I told you it was a good cafe. The goat cheese quiche was unbelievably good! While I munched into that, my daughter had some more of the chocolate cake that we had ordered the day before. We were sat both drawing again. I was sketching on the iPad this time and my daughter was being creative in her sketchbook. Two ladies sat at the same table beside us, where the couple we spoke to the day before had sat. They immediately engaged us in conversation, again because we were both drawing. They told us that they were travelling and were from South Africa. We talked about all things creative again. A lovely natural conversation opened up about positive energy, education and creative endeavours. It turned out that that younger lady was also an artist. She showed me her work. Fabulous imagery of flowers and plants, bold marks and wonderful colour use. Lovely observational work. We talked until the cafe staff eventually asked us to leave as they had to close up shop. We could have sat in there all day long, drawing and chatting to people. One of lifes simple joys!

So my advise is to draw and sketch in public with wild abandon. Put away all inhibitions. Be creative. Always! You never know what wonderful things it will lead to. Chance meetings and great conversations in this case, and a nice new illustration for my portfolio.

© EMELBI 2023 – All Rights Reserved

 

See how the illustration came together in Procreate in the video below

Colour Variations